Defeated

My heart is torn
and it is broken
it bleeds pain
and it suffers
no one sees it
but i alone feel it
i feel alone
and i cannot cope with myself
my hands shake
my tears drop
i feel so lost
and abandoned
how can someone use that word so freely
and so easily
and how can i let them in soo deeply
5 years seemed like a lifetime
and the pain seems like forever
its like you purposely stole my soul from me
and i can no longer feeel
tears fall as my prayers
and roll down my cheeks
a smile than has deminished
the love as i know it
has gone.
it only took a minute
for me to realise
just because i love you
doesnt mean i need you.

Im smiling AGAIN!

MY WIFE [That is all]

Just Updating...

Soo it seems i havent blogged in a while and this is because i have been working in Trinidad for the best 3 mths. Yes, ive been occupied and it has been good for me. Keeping myself busy is one way of making myself believe i can find happiness. Makes me forget how loneliness can feel...