Defeated

My heart is torn
and it is broken
it bleeds pain
and it suffers
no one sees it
but i alone feel it
i feel alone
and i cannot cope with myself
my hands shake
my tears drop
i feel so lost
and abandoned
how can someone use that word so freely
and so easily
and how can i let them in soo deeply
5 years seemed like a lifetime
and the pain seems like forever
its like you purposely stole my soul from me
and i can no longer feeel
tears fall as my prayers
and roll down my cheeks
a smile than has deminished
the love as i know it
has gone.
it only took a minute
for me to realise
just because i love you
doesnt mean i need you.