Perfect Night

Candles lit
the light dimmers
i feel your presence
i feel the warmth from your body
i feel you

you grab hold of my arms
you kiss my lips
your hand lower down to my hips
i feel your breath on my neck
i feel you

Now were on the bed
on your chest, i lay my head
i can hear your heart beating
i feel your love for me
i feel you

Your hands caress my body
almost like your touching my soul.
you brought warmth to it for it was layin somewhere cold
we are no longer two persons, but one union.
i feel you and I love you.

When you look at me. You probable say;
shes one of those divas who they they the baddest.
WRONG! but i cant stop people from talking about me
People are going to talk about me
until the day I die
But thats not important
Whats important, is what i answer to.

Giving Up.

My heart is racing
palms sweaty
pills scattered on the floor
here i lay
hoping it is my last breath
before my lovely death
im terrified but life scares me
everything about it haunts me
i can feel my heart beating
beating from fear
is it my fear to live or to die?

I close my eyes,
praying i don't wake up from my dream.
I feel my heart slowing down
Into the darkness, my spirit is drowned
hours passed, but it feels like minutes.
all my sorrow i want to diminish
Suddenly, loud noises of someone breaking in
I can't figure out who it is.
I was lifted and carried off my bed
and asked,"Keisha wake up, are you ok?"
With squinted eyes, i looked up.
it was no longer a dream
I WAS ALIVE.

Girl in the Mirror

Theres a girl in the mirror
I always wonder who she is
sometimes i think i know her
and sometimes i wish i did
There's a story in her eyes
Sorrow and lies
when shes looking back at me
I can tell shes hurting inside.

You cannot break a girl who is already broken.

There are two great days in a person's life.

The day we are born and the day we discover why.

Laugh, Drink,Smoke,Live Life <3

Hello by Evanescence

"Hello"

Playground school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello I'm your mind
giving you someone to talk to
Hello

If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken
Hello I am the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello I'm still here
All thats left of yesterday

Giving up doesnt always mean you are weak
Sometimes it means you are
strong enough to let go.

Obama need fi stop playin & go legalize di ting already. Weed affi smoke. Ya zeet

Secrets

Who am i?
What am i about?
What am i doing here?
Why do i feel this way?
Why am i here?
Where do i stand?
Who is there for me?
Who will help me up when i fall?
When will i seek happiness?
When will i love myself?
When will i be loved?
Whose fault is it for my sorrow?
Why cant i stop crying these tears?
Where do i belong in this world?
Do i even belong?
Am i even worthy of this life?
Am i thankful enough for my life?
Questioning my life everyday and it never gives me answers.
Is it a secret? Am i not supposed to know the results or conclusions of my life.
I guess i never will.

WORTHLESS.

I always used to want others to notice me
Instead they rejected me
Said i was weird and not like everyone else
Also that I wouldn't fit it, and i should just keep to myself
I concealed my real inner self for very long
Til i almost forgot who i was.
I cant continue living this way
it causes me to go astray
Cause the things that i crave for,
will never be handed to me because of the way i portray myself.
Sometimes i ask myself, "what do others think of me? Do they look at me as a daughter, scholar, whore?"
But im beginning not to care.
Only my opinion of myself matters now. But what do i think of myself?
should i be loved from others,or from myself?
Should i get respect? Should I be trusted?
Am i even worthy of anything??
AM I?

Never Again

I need to be rescued by myself.
Deminish what saddens me.
Im so numb inside
What emotions do i have when i have been broken?

I gave you my heart.
Now its just bleeding in your hands
And i still can't say no to you.
Hiding all emotions from whoever else comes my way.
Dark clouds play in my mind
Confusing the thoughts in my head
I can't trust myself anymore.


You lead me on
Now i cant let you go
What happened?
Im not good enough?
I still dont know what keeps me here.
But dont try to fix me, Im not broken anymore.

Mixed Emotions

I linger in the dark
My demons wandering in my mind.
The raindrops fall as my tears leaves my eyes
Lying somewhere which seems foreign to me
But i know i should call it home
Im seeking refuge from myself
I fell in love with my sorrow.

Why do i feel so alone and isolated.
Sadden by my life
When my life to others seems perfect.
Should i lie to myself,pretending to prove them right?
Should i lie to myself to make myself content?
Or should i deal with the pain myself?

I wish i had someone who was there to catch me before i fall.
And hit the ground.
Im crying inside because of my inner fears
I pray that my dreams may leave me here.
Holding my last breath
Wishing I can leave this place
Sitting beside myself,
My heart begins to race
I don't know this emotion
Its like im wishing to be dismissed
From this cold world.
World full of lies and conflict.
Everyone is fooling someone.
No one is themselves.
But who am I? Am i just another person.
Do i have a purpose for being here?
Why can't happiness find me?
Hold me in its arms and never leave me!
Maybe then i'll find my will to live.

Taking Over Me.

I wanna know everything about you
I wanna feel the way i do when im around you
I used to laugh when you tell me to smile
All i do is reminisce because i haven't smiled in a while.

Carving words in my heart, because i dont know how to say it to you
Hopefully, my actions speak louder than words.
But how am i going to make it come through
My heart, through my mouth as words?
Would i mean what i say, and will it hurt you?

Am i too young to love? i ask myself
What is love? i ask myself
What emotion is this we chase and fein for?
How can we want something so bad and don't even know what it is.
If Love is so precious to one, why does it hurt one so bad?
Do we love because we believe one loves us back?
Is it faith that makes us love?
Well,if it is, I believe in love and i believe i fell in Love with you.