Mixed Emotions

I linger in the dark
My demons wandering in my mind.
The raindrops fall as my tears leaves my eyes
Lying somewhere which seems foreign to me
But i know i should call it home
Im seeking refuge from myself
I fell in love with my sorrow.

Why do i feel so alone and isolated.
Sadden by my life
When my life to others seems perfect.
Should i lie to myself,pretending to prove them right?
Should i lie to myself to make myself content?
Or should i deal with the pain myself?

I wish i had someone who was there to catch me before i fall.
And hit the ground.
Im crying inside because of my inner fears
I pray that my dreams may leave me here.
Holding my last breath
Wishing I can leave this place
Sitting beside myself,
My heart begins to race
I don't know this emotion
Its like im wishing to be dismissed
From this cold world.
World full of lies and conflict.
Everyone is fooling someone.
No one is themselves.
But who am I? Am i just another person.
Do i have a purpose for being here?
Why can't happiness find me?
Hold me in its arms and never leave me!
Maybe then i'll find my will to live.