Crying Out

Im so tired about how hard
my life is
and tired of the people in it
and how each one hurts me individually.
Im immune to so much pain
But when I do get hurt.
It feels like, it last foreverrr
I fail so much in life
I just NEED some motivation
Sometimes I wish I can
just stop breathing
and GOD will it take
Under his ARMS!
Maybe then i will be happy
People think i will be happy
People think I'm over domestic
But they don't know half of what's going on.
I wish everyone would leave me alone
i don't feel liked
i definitely don't feel loved
Nothing never goes right.
The one thing I want in life
Is so far out of my reach
I feel so tired , so exhausted with my life.
Tired of living this lie
pretending I'm happy
and i been doing this for a while.
It hasn't become my reality.
When will this end?