To Whom This May Concern

Please, please forgive me
for wanting you.
Going to bed with you in mind
and waking up with a smile on my face
because its another day i can speak to you.
im confused about this feeling i have
sometimes
i regret it
other times,
i embrace it.
i believe one day
its gonna take all of me
and i am going to be in too deep
sweet words i wish to tell you
when i cant sleep
but i just end the night
by saying Goodnight
& then i fade away
How can i feel so strongly
about you
and i bearly know you
but i feel like i do
and we never seen each other in person
But, i feel so comfortable
in my skin when we speak.
All sadness and lost hope
eliminates for a split second
Then, it rushes back
because
i dont know what it is
you want!
I just wanna know
do you care
and can you be there
when i need someone?
But you give me no feedback
all i get in my mind, is a blank image
im lost in my own thoughts
i want to give up on you
but i cant
i feel like there's something
further down the road for me
i guess, im going to wait it out
and Prepare for the worst.