Whats on my mind today

I really dont know what to describe myself.
I can tell someone who i am but they always wish to categorize me.
Some tell me im Emo, some tell me im just plain weird.
Some say im just depressed and others who dont understand me say im crying for attention
Why would i wish to be sad, and cry everyday.
i would LOVE to be in love with myself and everything around me
Maybe i can love someone else one day.
And maybe they can save me from myself.
My entire styled changed. my choice in music changed
everything about me is dark.
I have had suicidal thoughts and tried but failed
I guess i have a purpose on this Earth after all.
People close to me always ask me why i always write poems in my book
and never wish to share?
Do they really want to know what goes on in my head... and can they handle it
I hide my hands everytime i am home. I dont want them to see my scars
No, i dont care if they see them, its my hand. i just dont want to have to explain why they are there
most of the time ,its because of them.
wanting too much from me.
i cant even give myself what i want.
I swear people ask for too much from me
i just feel like giving up sometimes
maybe if i do, i owe no one anything
and i can FINALLY REST.
but life goes on and its a full time job
Let me do my best. I probably will be rewarded!