Conversation with my Conscience.

Life?
There's so much more to it
Than clothes , money , cars
Life is full of obstacles and barriers
firewalls and distractions
Sorrow and Hate
Lust and Love
I ask myself
what is my life really about?
what is my purpose here?
am i happy and if im not, why do i bother?
But what if i dont have an answer to that?
And i continue to feel
empty
alone
and like a failure
and nothing seems to go as planned
should i do society a favor
and say Goodbye?
Would people be happy if im gone
Would i even be missed?
Would people who seemed to not care
care the most when im out their lives?
Would i be a memory for a topic in few discussions?
But, then i think to myself
Wouldnt it be selfish if i just left?
Wouldnt i hurt those who actually love me
Because i couldn't live with myself?
I feel trapped in my own thoughts
with no one to set me free...
Tears stream down my eyes,
the inner pain is too much to hide anymore
Everytime i smile, i cherish the moments
I dont know when will be the next time
I shun myself
and turn my head to many people
& Give them a cold shoulder
Im become stubborn
Im arrogant at times
I wish to not care anymore
Maybe then, will i see
Who cares about me...